Stitches for a hurting heart

The heart, though unseen, does certainly contain water of a terrified sea.

Though invisible to our sight , it can drown one's sense of hope and might.

With our eyes we can watch it beat, in our mind we are a slave and it sits in the kings seat

So when the heart refuses to heal, and its stitches a thief continues to steal

We delicately touch our soul, feel the touch of red and immediately recoil

Panic begins to spread, we realize we're not alive and still so close to being dead

However, drops of healing do exist. The words of our God do persist.

Don't give up the fight, even if your soul is dripping and your face is turning white

I will share in the pain, my heart is not fixed. I too need healing, and will go on to read this.

Words in quotes have been taken From the Psalms

If I feel dry and empty, I must go to where you dwell. For "I am like a green olive tree in the House of God". My heart tells me it's hopeless but you say I must "trust in the mercy of God forever and ever. I'm impatient, and want to fix myself however, "In the presence of your saints I will wait on your name for it is good."

"Give ear to my prayer Oh God, and do not hide yourself from my supplication." Do you hear, do you care? How in the world can you relate to me? "Attend to me, and hear me. I am restless in my complaint and moan noisily."

I have called upon friends, I have called upon family, but I will give those ways up and have decided "I will call upon God and the Lord shall save me. You are always there to listen, you never take time off, or take time away from me. "Evening and morning and at noon. I will pray and cry aloud and he shall hear me."

Though I have sold my heart to what I have desired,"He has redeemed my soul in peace from the battle that was against me." My shoulders are weighed down and my legs are losing their strength so I will "Cast my burden on the Lord, and he will sustain me."

It's terrifying realizing that my hearts plans are not coming true. However, today I will decide that "Whenever I'm afraid, I will trust in you, In God, I will praise his word, In God I have put my trust." I have habitually put my trust in things I can see, in hands I admire. Thinking it is them who care but it is you who "number my wanderings and put my tears in your bottle, are they not in your book?" You have taken the time to write down the things hurting me, you have taken time.

So when my heart is stripped bare from the heat of its own desires, "In the shadow of your wings I will make my refuge, until these calamities pass me by." You don't ask me to seek advice from anyone else, just to rest in the shade you've provided. No one else can save me so "I will cry out to God most high, To God who performs all things for me, He shall send from heaven and save me."

I've trusted in my power for too long, "But I will sing of your power. Yes I will sing aloud of your mercy in the morning, for you have been my defense, and Refuge in the day of trouble." You fight for what's left of my heart, you find it valuable.

"Give us help from trouble, for the help of man is useless." How many times when I am hurting do I seek the attention of others. The words of others. But it is "you Oh God who have heard my vows". After all of this I come to the realization that I'm tired of fighting my own battles, Tired of trusting my heart to my own hands, So I will keep quite tonight. "My soul waits silently for God alone, for my expectation is from him." I don't expect anyone else to be able to handle my heart, as much as I want them to. "Trust in him at all times you people, pour out your heart before him, God is a refuge for us".

As the morning comes, and you've given me strength to start again. I'll hold your hand Father. Because "my soul follows close behind you, and your right hand upholds me. " You make life beautiful, you can even make a broken heart beautiful. You've provided healing, you've provided love. You've chosen me.